Giving him a chance

So..........simply put there is a friend of a friend who likes me who I really had absolutely no interest in. So much so that I cannot even tell you when I first met him or how long I've "known" him for. But I have always known that he liked me. He's tried to not make it so apparent which is funny as he has talked about me to our mutual friends and it of course comes back to me. I didn't like him so I never wanted to lead him on. But recently he's been more outspoken, with words and actions, so it's been hard not to ignore it. (We can thank the alcohol for that, lol.) There was a recent birthday celebration for him. Co-celebration actually, for him and one of our mutual friends. When our mutual friend asked if I wanted to go hang out she left out the birthday celebration part until after I said yes. As the night drew on I ended up getting more friendly that ever with him - talking more to him, dancing w/ him, letting him sit right next to me and put his arm around me, etc. I figured it was my little birthday present to him, lol. Well of course it did lead him on. Feeling bad I decided to give him a chance and get to know him. It's funny because I've always said I wanted someone who would pursue me, really pursue me. And it's funny because even though we've only had two real conversations, I'm beginning to see him in a different light. I don't know what this is, but I am glad I'm stepping out of my comfort zone and doing something I would not have done otherwise. This may be all it turns out to be, may be not; I honestly don't know and have no ulterior motives, but it's great to do something different and know that since I've done it once it will be more encouragement to do it again in the future. I am really hesitant stepping into this and I'm kind of scared that I will like him more, but I do know why: because I don't want to put so much of myself into something and it end up not working out or some one end up getting hurt, especially me. It's funny how people can want one thing but the complete opposite at the same time - I want someone and I want to be in a relationship, but I also want to be single so I don't have to deal w/ the process of starting and beginning a relationship. Sadly, it is rather true, the grass is always greener.....

Updates!

Wow! I cannot believe how long it has been since I've posted. A lot has happened. In a nutshell I tried the online dating thing and realized it's not for me, I celebrated a milestone birthday and did it over 5 days, I succumbed to mindless antics and continue to slip but have not given up on achieving abstinence from them, I indulged in being pursued by someone (but did not let it go too far as I couldn't bring myself to leading him on), I spent time with loved ones, and I achieved two items from The List. So, I wanted to update The List.

The List

1.       Get my masters.

2.       Learn a foreign language. Good enough to carry a conversation.

3.       Go on an African safari.

4.       Bungee jump.

5.       Sky dive.

6.       Swim with dolphins.

7.       Take yoga.

8.       Hike the Grand Canyon. Again.

9.       Complete a half-marathon.

10.   Fly Business or First Class.

11.   Meet and marry a wonderful man who exceeds all my expectations.

12.   Have children with said man.

13.   Take some form of martial arts.

14.   Go to Hawaii.

15.   Join the Peace Corps.

16.   Go to Greece.

17.   Go to Italy.

18.   Go to France.

19.   Go to Prague.

20.   Go to Amsterdam. Again.

21.   Have a piece of work published.

22.   Be an extra in a movie.

23.   Get out of debt!! Lol.

24.   Go to a Superbowl game.

25.   Meet a President.

26.   Go to New York.

27.   Go to a Broadway musical in New York.

28.   Live by the ocean.

29.   Win a baking contest.

30.   Host a Murder Mystery Party.

I realized I should be taking pictures to add along with each completion/achievement, so I will begin to do that and add them with each list update. I also started running and completed my first 5k. Since then I've run a second 5k and did Warrior Dash! Next up, #9! I'm super stoked!

Amazing voice and she's only 9 yrs old!

You have to check this out. This little girl has such an amazing voice - but not only does she sing, she plays, she writes songs, and composes music!!!

Love Day Dinner : )

Yummy!!! Love Day dinner : ) Wore my love socks, sent out positive love vibes, pretty good day I'd have to say!

Weekend read

I started this a while back but then entered my not reading phase. Hopefully I'll be able to finish it over the weekend.

Coffee, tea, and the weekend list

Sitting at a local coffee and tea shop attempting to get work done. It's the weekend, I've no real plans, except cleaning, and I'm wondering what to do. When I have busy weekends I just want to stay home and do nothing! And when I have weekends that I'm just staying home and doing nothing I just want to go out and do something! The grass is always greener.... So, in order to have the best of both worlds I have decided (just now - lol) to make a list:

Superbowl

I'm not a Steelers or Packers fan, but wanted to watch the game anyway because it was in Dallas and I am a Cowboys fan. (I'd like to just take a moment to say how disappointed I am that the Cowboys sucked this year because it would have been awesome to see them play in the Superbowl at their home stadium. Oh well, if not the Cowboys I guess it has to be another team. Maybe the Colts can pull that off next year.) Anyway, as I said, I'm not a fan of either team but I was rooting for the Steelers as I am less of a Steelers hater than Packers hater. Despite the Steelers not winning I have to admit that it was a pretty good game to watch. However I can't say that about the whole Superbowl broadcast. The halftime entertainment was horrible and a lot of the commercials were stupid, dull, or not original. I don't know, maybe it's just me but do the Superbowls seem like they just aren't the same anymore?! Or has the appeal been lost by me?